So today/yesterday was a bit different. I went to bed around 10:00 AM on Wednesday night only to wake up around 1:00 AM Thursday. I immediately tried to go back to sleep but my mind was amped up to a degree where my thoughts would not calm down enough for me to sleep after trying to sleep for 2 hours I decided to do the next best thing and I went to the gym...at 3:00 AM. I finished around 4:00 - got home around 4:45 after getting some gas and tried to rest my body for an hour but the thoughts wouldn't let me.
Long story short I felt like I was going to pass out around 2:00 PM at work but somehow powered through. After work met with a freelance client/friend - conversation was interesting and engaging so I didn't nod off there.
For some reason I thought it might be a good idea to go to a networking event that was on the way home (kind of) from the clients house. As soon as I walked in my body and brain screamed in unison "you can't do this" and I discreetly walked out.
When I got home I had a snack or two and then tried to take a catnap at 7:00pm thinking I would wake by 9or 10pm. I was woken from a call from Papua New Guinea at 1:00 AM from my wife and son.
As I look at my clock right now it is 1:52 AM Friday morning. I will give the drug the benefit of the doubt this weekend I think and then may restrict use after that for safety's sake. I sleep as little as it is and depriving me of sleep further or largely altering my sleep patterns I believe is "no bueno".
I will now try to eat something and attempt to go back to sleep. Thanks for reading.